A French Princess... wannabe

Saddest Kyle XY Episode: Electric Kiss

2009-01-27T21:54:00.004+08:00

I haven't been on my dashboard for almost a year. But I really can't help but burst out what I feel. It's been soo busy for the past months. And for the past weeks, but this didn't keep me from watching Kyle X Y. Yeah. The third season was launched January 12. And I just watched the third episode for this season. And it's sad. T_T. I don't really know what's gonna happen next but it seems that Amanda and Kyle are over. over. over. over. waa It's sad.. It's really really sad. I wish I could be more on detail but it really makes me sad whenever I remember what happened. huhuh. Oh my gosh I'm gonna cry.

in love, inlab, in-lababo.. may gripo , in english FaUcEt

2008-07-09T22:29:00.003+08:00

-- grabbed from a gUrL who owns the 'never-ending-fall' journal..
I was fascinated by the post so I'm gladly sharing it to those who consistently drops on my page and peeking for an update..
and so she started with a quoted quote..

faucet..ü

“If you are the luckiest person in the entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back..” –Nathan Scott

If that’s the case then maybe I’m the luckiest person.. [waha corny] dati when I see couples or hear them doing the “baby talk” or saying somke cheesy lines I’ll go.. yuck corny.. and then now I see myself doing that.. pero msaya kc when u’re inlove you just don’t care about what others think about you both.., importante masaya lang..

Since I was a kid I never thought of being inlove in the future.. so I didn’t actually have the perception or qualifications of a boyfriend I wanted to have.. until I was third year highschool.. I saw a boy.. he was my classmate.. since then I knew I liked him.. unintentionally we became groupware.. ansaya.. lalu na when I was chosen as the leader.. and as a perk I had the opportunity to pick kung sino gusto qng assistant.. shempre I chose him para we could “work together..” ^.^ I always tried to sit beside him and make him notice me.. pero he seemed so distant kya I knew he didn’t like me.. as far as I can remember he would always sit at the last chair near the window where he would always stare.. feeling q ndi xa nakking kc if he’s not staring out the window nagdodrawing lang xa sa notebook..

Fourthyear kame ndi na kame mg-classmate.. some time in September that year I got his number from a friend.. and thought about it the whole day if I should text him or not.. then I texted him.. we became friends and our friendship went into something else.. there was this connection between us na I can’t explain.. basta sobrng saya.. it was the first time I ever felt that way in my entire life.. unusual pero everytime I see him I can see my future with him. My world litteraly revolved around him.. thenm something happened and it all ended… parang asa heaven lang then in just a snap I fell into the ground.. [waha ilang feet un?!] it actually hurted like hell.. I developed insomnia cause I can barely sleep.. at that time I didn’t actually cared about anything more han him.. super disappointed with myself I didn’t know what to do.. buti nlang andun si florence..

When I entered college antaba q.. it’s true na when girls are depressed they eat their hearts out.. pag sad aq nahanap lng aq ng fud then I’m fine.. years passed and there was no communication between us.. pag naaalala q xa I look into the stars and think of what we could have been.. blame my self tapos kaen.. [haha.]

I thought of asking signs ung tipong my lines na.. “Lord qng xa tlga please give me this signs tomorrow..” then ie-enumerate q ung signs.. laughed after.. stupid little me.. I immediately forgot about the signs kc I thought I was just fooling myself believing we would ever be.. and surprisingly I saw the signs I was asking for.. masaya pero parang ayoqng maniwla.. tapos I prayed ulet.. sbe q.. “Lord seryoso k??” and asked for another signs kc baka nagkataon lang.. wla nang deadline.. taz isa nlang.. isa nlang tlga.. take your time.. [parang tropa lan e nu.] pero he gave me the sign again.. it really fascinated me na pngsabe ko talaga.. I remember telling a friend and she told me.. “nku jean imagination mu lang yan..” pero I believed in it.. I just didn’t know how it could possibly happen..

On my 17^th birthday one of my wishes was that I could be happy in the state of things as they already were.. mtgaltgal nrin kc.. taz the day after my birthday.. I received a text form him.. I thought of it ten times bgo q ng-reply.. and suddenly felt the same feelings I felt for him before.. shocks. I really never believed in destiny nor second chances till he came.. [wazap. Haha. Corny q.]

Now.. I’m so damn happy.. believe it or not I have never been this happy before.. I’m soo happy I can’t remove the smile I unconsciously project.. he is not perfect.. but he loves me and me makes me sooo happy. Ngayon lng tlga q nagging masaya ng walang pretentions.. wlang regrets.. masaya ko kc masaya ko ng totoo.. hindi dahil masaya ko kc kelangan kong ipilit nay un ung maramdaman ko.. masya q ng sobra at totoo un.. masya qng mahal na mahal q xa at mahal nya rin ako.. prang hindi talaga totoo.. its kinda hard to believe na I’m with someone who makes me lough my loudest, smile my widest and happy sooo bigtime..

Alam ko pag ndi ako mahal ng isang tao.. alam ko pag nakikipaglokohan lang. pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ayaw maniwala ng isip q na may lalake pa sa ngayon na kayang magmahal ng totoo.. pero sigurado prin aq na mahal nia q.. when he looks into my eyes.. he’s like looking at a goddess.. [jowklang ang part na un. Haha] he looks at me so different.. basta iba.. so new to me.. no one ever looked at me that way before… grabe I’m so happy. I really want this post to turn out hilarious.. I mean kinda funny, kinda lite, not so baduy.. pro what can I do? Haha.

I want to keep him.. I want him to stay.. I want this thing between us to last..

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--this ends here
haiz..

Peek

2008-05-09T19:02:00.002+08:00

I've been busy for weeks now and I don't know if I could get through all this things.
Four months to go and I'll turn 18 and I am really have lot of things planned to do.
I just hope I could have them all.. or even just one..

la la la la la la ...

Clueless

2008-03-18T14:38:00.003+08:00

Hay bored..
It's already vacation and it stinks. it makes me lazy. It's hot and it doesn't feel good. There isn't a month but it had widened my body a bit. Now I wonder what will I look like on friend Ilyn's big day.. It's gonna be on Saturday. [sigh] And there's my 3 year old baby brother who just grabbed my pen and insists on going to school. things are really getting a lot weird lately.

There's a lot of things I really wanna do on for the holidays and for the rest of the vacation as well. But I don't know where and how to start. Anyways I'll just do a list and give an update about it. I'm also planning on to change my layout [finally!] but again I'll be needing a butterfly's help..

♫ .. I never really cared until I met you
and now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you ... Alone ♫

2-week Holiday

2007-12-27T12:14:00.000+08:00

No classes! Haha! I would really enjoy this season not having Calculus to think about.. Haha Though this will only be for two weeks. Pwede na un. Enjoy everyone! Let's talk about it after seasons.

`Til When??

2007-12-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

Feeling so irresponsible..

I have given enough time for this. But then I chose to flatter myself than to do the tasks. And now I see myself crave.. huhuhuh.. when would this be all gone? I cannot do this. I cannot blame and curse myself.. Waaahh!! Ayoko na!!

But then.. Hopes are still up.. brought by heaven-made man.. ♥

Dumbfull Speaking

2007-12-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

There were no classes last Friday, so I asked my friend to be with me at SM-Dasmariñas for some purposes. When we're on the jeepney, on the way to the mall, a girl, particularly a student from the Health and Sciences Campus(rumored to be already an Institute) of the Green Archer's School get in the same vehicle we were in with his (nevertheless) boyfriend..

As far as I remember, they fare a hundred-peso bill. Of course, as a student of such prestigious(????!) school, you were expected to act accordingly to know that you're educated person, having the fact that you're wearing the school's name as your uniform says.

Unfortunately, the vehicle was a bit crowded and people were paying their fares almost at the same time; that would possibly and probably confuse a driver. So as I said, they paid a hundred-peso bill. Possibly in confusion, the driver gave them their change. Then the companion of the girl said, "Kanino po ito?". Realizing the fault, the driver immediately raise an apology. "Ay! Pasensya na ho, nagkamali lang. Ito na ho yung kulang sa sukli. Pasensya ho. Sorry ho!". It should have been all fine when the girl irritably raised her voice with the most unpleasant word we should never hear from a student of GAS.. "Utak ah!!?".. She said and everybody turned to silence. What duh??!! I almost dump her out of the window. And she really looks stupid, I swear!! Good they dropped off somewhere, minutes from what happened. She really is a shame.

Feel like home

2007-11-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

My Heart, Your Home
Hillsong Kids

Come and make my heart Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through 'till my heart becomes a home for You.

A home for You, Lord.
A home for You, Lord.
Let everything I do open up,
A door for You to come through,
And that my heart would be a place where You want to be.
Come and make my heart Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through 'till my heart becomes a home for You.

You are my portion, filling up everything.
You are the fortune that's causing my heart to sing.
That it's amazing, that You could make Yourself at home with me.
Come and make my heart,
Come and make it Your home.
Come and be everything I am and all I know.
Search me through and through 'till my heart becomes a home for You.

Fixed Destiny

2007-11-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

Whenever I hear the word destiny, it seems to be very magical to me. So I looked up to our Merriam-Webster dictionary and it says that it has something to do with a person's fate or fortune, or a predetermined course of events. And so it made me wonder why are there people who believe in destiny and there's who don't.

I remember a professor who asked me if I do believe in destiny? And I remembered telling him that I do believe that everything happens for a reason. If that's so we then could say that destiny is something that 'happened' to you. Aw! This really gets me confuse. Ha-ha.

Inagree people say that it is you who does your fate and so there's no such thing as destiny. As well as everything you do corresponds to a particular consequence.

But whatever people say about it, I know something that might give different consequences but will be a hundred percent sure, fixed destiny. It is the eternal life that God given us that we'll receive when we receive God's gift of salvation through Jesus Christ to be our Lord and Savior. And will dwell in God's kingdom forever. At the moment we are given the eternal inheritance, it'll "never fade away, and is reserved in heaven" for us. Our salvation is secure because God does the holding.

"Our destiny is not riding on the next pitch (or fate) we make. Through faith, it is forever fixed in heaven." -DHR

Rolling Metro

2007-10-23T18:49:00.000+08:00

I've read my previous post several times and i found it hmm.... doesn't it sound annoying? Ha-ha. Anyways, yesterday I went to lolo's branch office to submit copy of my so-so grades and get my tuition certificate as well. I left home before 9 in the morning wearing my pransesa outfit. nyahahah.. Well of course, riding my fave transpo vehicle, the rolling metro. It was like one and a half hour trip ata sa bus, and also in a non-airconditioned one or else i would spit myself out. Thought it was a bit crowded inside, I was comfortable with my seat. And I still feel alone. Happy trip with me-self. Ha-ha. Riding off the bus gotta ride a colored vehicle naman for me to get to the office. Akala ko pa nga naligaw na ko eh but then I saw the mini metro. wahaha! Bad thing was there's no public vehicle that would drop me exactly where I'm going. So there, off from MOA super walkathon under the sun till I reach building A ng sorporate offices. Grabeh! It was really walkathon. Imagine walking from building D to A?? Harsshhh...

And there.. got everything I need. I approached the receptionist and heard them talking bout the girl sitting inches behind me. Yeah she was pretty cute and super puti. Don't think she wears on casual. Dami kasing borloloy eh. Though she's just on shirt and jeans. Pero casual na din siguro yun. Di ko naman agad na-gets na si LJ Reyes pala yun. Kundi pa sinabi ni BobJr. Stroll a bit, buy something to eat and go! We rode the rolling metro and this time made my trip better. Haayy.. Sometimes it really feels better if you're along din nuh? Kasi ako, the moment that I walked along the stores, I feel very strange. But I'm happy. Feel ko talaga na I'm alone, I'm free! Nobody knows me, nobody cares on what you're doing, who you are and where you're going. It may look like pakalat-kalat lang ako but at least no one bothers me! Haayy sarap. Ha-ha.

Me-self Intro

2007-10-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

Whew! This is great! Finally i had my very first blog. And because this is my first post, I'm very excited to share everything.

Hi everyone! My name is Florence. A chinita girl from Philippines. And yes, isa kong pransesa! A french princess.. wannabe. I'm currently in college at Green Archers' University. Some people say I'm nice. That's all. Ha-ha. Maybe because that's all they can say, or that's all they know. There is this girl, a rockerchick who says I'm more mysterious than her. Well, let's try revealing those mysteries li'l by l'l. Actually, i love talking about myself. Oh how I hate roaches! It's just that wala naman akong makakausap. No one to talk to. I love myself. Who doesn't? But sometimes, or should say most of the time, I'm having a hard time on how would I make myself look like what I wanted it to be. I'm a moody person. Yeah. And don't know how to organize things. See, everything's gonna be in random. And I've got few little things about myself that I know for certain. Laging in doubt? And alam ko din na ako lang ang naaaliw sa mga pinagsasabi ko dito. I'm open-minded. Kaya lang it make me more confuse sometimes. I always wanted to know what other people think about me. Though it may hurt. I'm weak. I'm a cry baby. Super! Lalo na before. I'm sweet. That's for sure kahit di halata. Marami akong alam, by means of... I can sing, quite dance, play guitar, tip the piano, draw. Ang I love music very much! MUSIC is my bestfriend. Hmmm... I don't lose myself at school. Never should I. I'm a very sensitive person. Love to keep secrets. I love GOD! He's all I have. I really thank God that I've known Him, that I believe in Him, that He saved me.

I'm clumsy. I'm unknown. Never been popular. I'm not pretty. Cute lang! I've never been best in anything. I'm not as good as what other people think of me. I just do what I can. Show what I got. Share what I have. I'm not funny and got little of humor. But I always try to be good. But still show me-self. And continue telling stories.. On how does the life of a pransesa goes..